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Life Purpose: I exist to facilitate connections with others

NOTE: this is out-of-date and similar though not wholly reflective of what I think currently

A Vow of Poverty

  • accept no money for the info, knowledge, or insights
  • open-source and license for greatest exposure, sharing, and robustness for non-commercial usage
  • Lindy effect: make it last, where reasonable, for as much as possible
  • seek greatness and difficulty for its own sake as a virtue
  • help but delegate where appropriate; this saves oneself from irritation and provides opportunity to grow through instruction
  • for myself, I have decoupled the necessity to work to live; therefore, I have the opportunity to use my brain to accomplish and not waste it on menial tasks

“Seeds planted today, will grow to towering trees tomorrow, which will bear fruit much sweeter than we could ever imagine” -Simón Bolívar

Elevator Pitch

This explains what I am doing in an interesting, open, and vulnerable way while not being negative, overly detailed, or qualifying…

I am cultivating my creativity and expression through:

  • guitar
  • photography
  • Spanish
  • journaling

I am experimenting with my:

  • appearance
  • style
  • piercings
  • tattoos
  • name

Professionally, I bartend and automate computer testing. I have a couple of degrees. I have a goal of living in a Spanish-speaking country, and I can read, write, speak, and use my technology in Spanish. I am training gymnastics-lite with difficult body movements like handstands, muscle ups, front levers, and planches.

My interest include:

  • nature
  • beauty
  • self-improvement
  • music
  • fitness

I am working to open-source my ideas and philosophy fully.

Goals

Cultivate a healthy, confident, and attractive mindset

Mindset is the most important level of growth for me to make. This mindset plays into the “vibe” that a lot of people (especially women) subconsciously intuit.

Having a solid mindset will:

  • keep me stable through difficult times
  • help me make good decisions
  • bolster my attractiveness
  • allow me to be confident and unashamed of my actions

Actions:

Sleep

My greatest struggle, but the most important for a solid brain, mood, and vibe:

  • Goal: sleep 7-8hrs/night
  • Chill time: 11pm ; stretching, deep breathing, and meditation before sleeping – practice relaxation (parasympathetic) response when the least stressed
  • Bedtime: 0000-0730
  • Minimize: waking up in the middle of the night
    • any middle of the night wakeups – get out of bed and walk or read BUT do not continue laying in bed
  • Continue: using ear plugs, light-blocking sleep mask, and sound machine
  • No: screens (aside from eReader) an hour before bed and/or use blue-light blocking apps and glasses
  • Bed is only sleeping – Pavlovian conditioning where the brain and body associate the bed with anything not sleep-related
Diet

My second greatest struggle, though I have improved a lot. This will help play into good vibes and feelings internally as well as improved sleep and athletic performance:

  • create my own cookbook of simple, healthy, protein-focused meals (that I already make! – I tend to forget my options)
  • look into Chris Heria’s meal prep videos
  • forgive myself on binge days
  • continue eating protein powder and yogurt/smoothie mix
  • focus on eating plenty of healthy food to satiation and not stopping early
  • create daily eating schedule with times, proportions, food options, etc.
Affirmations
  • “I love you”-mirror exercises 3x/ea morning
  • No More Mr. Nice Guy’s list of affirmations on the fridge
Guitar
  • pick up the guitar everyday
  • follow guitar lessons practice tasks
  • finger dexterity
Journaling
  • Continue enjoying the process of writing: notebook, HP journal, forum, Google Keep notes
Exercise
  • I have a set schedule, but I also do more than I am scheduled for… makes me feel like a boss
  • Hold a handstand for 10+ seconds without a support or moving around
  • Be able to run 6 miles without stopping
Photography
  • Create my own instructions for camera settings… these are pretty overwhelming
  • Take 1 picture/day
  • Aim to get some good “professional” shots of myself and activities
Moderation of substances
  • Limiting going out or staying out late will mitigate most of this

Have more meaningful sexual, romantic, and intimate experiences

  • continue dressing stylish, tattoos/piercings, tanning, being well-groomed, and smelling good
  • being open, honest, emotional, and sexual – BUT not being devastated from a rejection
  • keep slimming down… life starts at 12% and remember my face is usually +2% bodyfat than my average
  • deepening connections with compatible lovers – I personally prefer more intimate (deeper) connections; the trust and connection/bond is much more enjoyable than novelty for me generally

Relationship Needs

These needs are listed for specificity and clarity and are desired to be shown to a reasonable extent. Demonstrating these over the period of a day or week would be appreciated so long as schedules, commitments, and life allow.

These needs have been written with a “me-first” focus and are not written in relation or retribution to anyone else intentionally.

  • Physical presence
    • I want a relationship based in the physical realm
    • I want a partner that is present in the physical realm as much as reasonably possible
    • I do not want a long-distance relationship
    • I do not want a relationship where I feel like I must compete with screens
  • Physical touch
    • Public Displays of Affection
  • Quality time
    • Emotional presence
    • Fun activities
    • Chores or life maintenance
  • I want my feelings to be factored into major life decisions, even if the decision does not directly involve me
  • Trusting me enough to keep me involved first on big life decisions, even if they are difficult or could cause emotional upset
  • I deserve to advocate for myself and ensure that the relationship provides me what I am looking for in life
    • If it does not, then I owe it to myself to communicate clearly and in the event of the relationship is not resolvable, to end the relationship
  • Happiness, Contentment, Safety, and Security
    • I do not expect a relationship to always be easy or positive, but I do not want a relationship that provides a burden or that does not make happy

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