Sleep Focus and Random Updates
What’s up guys, I’ve done quite a bit and not all that much. I’m still in a damn insomnia cycle, but I think it’s about over. I’ve been more “homebound” than normal and doing my minimum/maintenance actions to keep life and work together, but it’s been a bit frustrating.
I went back to the US for my sleep study, and I don’t have apnea but some sort of minor breathing issues (and my Oura ring says the same). I’ve been told to sleep on my side, so that’s unhelpful. I’ve done therapy generally speaking, CBT+sleep journaling specifically for sleep, and now I’m back to tracking/following bedtimes with Oura and a medicine. I got prescribed Hydroxyzine off-label to help me short-term, which is an allergy medicine normally – I only take it when I am in a cycle. Rant: Crazy the doc told me to take 2 if 1 doesn’t work (at 10mg per tab), but holy hell 1/2 (at 5mg) is plenty. I swear all medicines are overdosed or I’m super sensitive to everything. 1 full tab glues me to the bed.
After my doc appointment, I went to an ayahuasca ceremony with a friend, but I don’t think he’d want me to mention him so I’ll leave it at that. TLDR: it was cool but very much like shrooms for me. I feel fairly “peaceful” with my life these days so my last 3-4 trips have really just said do the hard work and be grateful. I went for my friend, but my experience was beautiful: I cried (happy) for a few hours on the floor while remembering all these memories from my life.
Anyways, I think traveling and aya aren’t helping me, so I’m taking a travel pause except for maybe saving 1 last trip to Colombia. I journaled and planned quite a bit on the biz side, but my brain hasn’t been able to work much on it. But not all is lost, I should be back soon.
Unrelated, trying to get me and my lady friend into the BDSM scene here; we went to our first ever munch last week, and it was surprisingly nice. The people were incredibly friendly, so I hope to go to more events and grow in that aspect. I feel that I’ve grown as much as I can in the bedroom, so now I want to branch out. Her and I are as close as ever – I couldn’t think of a better person to go with me.