More Clarity

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I went a little crazy last week, hence my super long post in my other log, but it’s exactly what I needed to calm my thoughts a little. I have more clarity through that, daily meditation, journaling, and deactivating my “online presence” for a bit (except here).

TLDR: Gonna hermitmaxx and ignore women/stop seeing ladyfriend again for a bit to focus on my school (final exams in 2 weeks) and figure out residence. Gonna take an inter-dimensional trip on a better day (already have everything). Moving roommates and living arrangement in a month to better focus long-term (maybe sooner if necessary but it’s not atm). Focusing on this reality more than dating apps/social media to give myself the stability that I keep saying I want

💥Actions

🇲🇽Spanish

  • Spanish school: completed all assignments – except an essay that I’m working on today/tomorrow to catch up
  • Daily practice: flashcards and Harry Potter audiobook
  • Dance: tried out a different dance class of Salsa Cubana (casino) – wore me out, so I’m sticking with 2x/week
  • Went on an all-day guided tour and talked to a lot of new people in Spanish

⚕️Diet/Exercise/Sleep

  • Food: n/a
  • Exercise: n/a
  • Walking: 80k steps this week
  • Sleep: insomnia cycle is almost over (I’m sleeping throughout the night again)

❤️‍🔥[HIATUS] Dates/Relationships

  • Apps: n/a – indefinite hiatus; deactivated all dating and social media apps (FB, IG, Tinder, Bumble, FB dating)
  • Dates: n/a – indefinite hiatus
  • Sexual Health: making time to practice alone with condoms and actively relaxing instead of being tense or nervous when sexual to work thru condom ED
  • Realized that, not her fault, but ladyfriend reminds me too much of my ex, and it’s been fucking with my head (to include having dreams about my ex); gonna cut things off with her whenever, though we’re not anything so no pasa nada

🔧Self-Development

  • Course: continuing finishing the course and weekly accountability meetings with a best friend about them
  • Coaching: continuing coaching new friend – he gave me a compliment that I helped him get a BJ from some girl after talking to me one day (a while ago)… didn’t realize this but kinda cool testimony. We’re working on some inner game stuff and dating app stuff to help him lose his virginity