Prepping For Mexico And Grinding Work Hard

With Mexico less than a month away, I am focusing my prep on that. I don’t care to give much time to friends… most are distant, “busy”, responsible, or lame to be honest. I am blessed to have them, but I’m also glad that we don’t need to hang out all the time (and even when I’m leaving). The real gangstas make time for me (and come to me!).

I’m logging today since I’ll be working the next few days (few days are all-day, double work)… I am thankful for this. I need to burn my time here and bank money for my move.

Actions

  • Daily Spanish practice: mostly light practice, but I do Duolingo, read, think, talk, etc. in Spanish – I’ve been practicing communicating my ideas rather than banalities, and this has been great
  • Read quite a bit about Mexican culture (slang, music, food, family, religion, dating/women, etc.)
  • Scheduled to bartend 5 days/wk – gonna make that money, pass time, and enjoy my last bit of bartending before I stop
  • Fun time at water park with [bartender] friend and his son yesterday… I’ll miss living here and the cool people that I have met
  • Waking up every day at 0730 per my insomnia CBT
  • Walked 6 miles and ran 4 miles yesterday in the God-forsaken 90F-100+F temp here in Satan’s burning asshole… looking forward to milder weather in CDMX
  • More fatigue/daytime drowsiness/brain fog from heat, workouts, and allergies – rest week from calisthenics and taking allergy meds to kill this fucking ear infection I hope
  • HONESTLY: wasted a lot of time laying around (phone scrolling/playing Dominion) due to fatigue… I’ve not been too upset about it considering I’m productive and my body probably needs rest anyway. Looking forward to “wasting” time in a big city like CDMX rather than on my phone

Mentality

I’ve been angrier lately still but no recent outbursts like when I argued with that cop. I’ve been more proud of my assertive and open-communication (i.e. “I don’t like that” or “No, I won’t go out and party you guys stay up too late”, etc.). Small steps, but I feel like I’m shedding my nice guy attitude that plagued me for a lot of my life.

I’ve been dreaming A LOT – some nights multiple dreams. I think my body/soul/brain/whatever knows I’m leaving my old life here, and it’s consolidating a lot my memories from this period of my life. I had a negative dream about my ex, but it helped me realize even more why I’m better off without her. I can’t say I’ve missed her beyond the first month after separating.