Many Updates

NOTE: this message was written because I started a new journal… although it might not exactly make sense, the gist of my vision going forward does: ACTION

This log will note actions that I have already taken – a look backwards. This will push me to continue taking great action and not just seeking attention or validation for things that I have not done yet. This will also allow me to [internally] change my mind as much as I need without telling the world. I want to practice telling people what I do and not what I would like to do. Updates will be sporadic since my schedule at the moment keeps changing.

This log is in contrast to my PREVIOUS LOG where I very much needed to sort through my ideas but also enjoyed the exhibition of being open with them. I am tired of surrounding myself with other people saying all the things that they would like to do… and then doing nothing to achieve them. I am also frustrated with myself with being that way, but we all need time periods to vent. That time period is behind me for the time being.

I am over my doom, gloom, and overly emotional stage. I feel and know my feelings better, but I need to pair action with those feelings. I will continue to use my old log as needed, but by deprecating it, I am prioritizing action.

Action does not need to be a win everyday. Action needs to be experimentation, effort, and facing fear, worry, or insecurity head-first instead of just writing about it. I have a great local support group of friends to help me along. I have you guys and the forums to encourage. I have myself to keep going.

It’s time to hustle.


Today is a busy day, so I’ll have to keep it brief before work.

Actions

  • Divorce decree is signed and awaiting court date to finalize it… there’s very little action left on my part aside from waiting
  • I am quitting my bartending job (putting in my 2 weeks notice today when I go in to work)
  • Early termination of my studio apartment – completely moving out before…
  • I am moving to Mexico City 2 months (mid-Aug to mid-Oct) to continue an [old] dream of mine to study and improve my Spanish at the university there
  • ^^^Plane and lodging already booked
  • I’ve been continuing my various other journals for: sleep, food, exercise, weight, Spanish, and guitar
  • Friends supportive and helping me out
  • Many other minor things that I’ll write out later

Mentally

I’ve felt really good the last week. Sleep, diet, exercise, etc. have helped as well as my own internal work. As David Goggins says, I’m staying hard motherfucker—