Another Year Older Yet WAY BETTER
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Here I am, another year older today, and that much closer to 30. My quiet goal to myself has been to “lock it in by 30” – I trust myself that I will be able to do this. Last week, I felt like I was going a little off the rails from not having slept too well, but this week is a full of wins. I am not only well-rested but also very happy and calm today. This isn’t a feeling that I get often.
I’ll probably reflect on my last year in a different post. A year ago, I was swamped in feelings of negativity and hopelessness. Now, I’m living quite the opposite.
I will highlight my changes to reinforce to myself (and maybe you dear reader) what I think has been working. That way I will keep progressing and become: “Kyle tha Killah” XD
What I do want to say is that – trust the work and progress. No one has to follow my journey, but I’ve been taking the template from here and will highlight what I think is working for me. Regardless, I have improvements even if my analysis is wrong. What I think has really helped me to exponentially progress – in happiness, love, peace, calm, and life are TL;DR:
- Lost fat: down 16lbs and probably 12%-13% BF <– I credit this with not only an increase in my confidence and self-view, but also how others treat me. Women especially “see” me for the first time in my life. Yes, I am still 5'5", bald, and translucently white, but those things bother me less now. They are becoming less and less of limiting beliefs. People look at me. People enjoy talking to me. Women are giving me attention in real life and dating apps (is this the validation that the average women feels day to day sorta?). Physically I feel a lot better, don’t hurt as much (achey joints), and I feel like a virile man (def a lot more horniness lately).
- Upgraded style: I am still contemplating and exploring my archetype and style, but I like where I am at now. Somehow, I attract the emos/goths as well as the Latinas (who generally don’t speak English <3 ) – my favorites. I typically dress all-black athleisure (fit and light weight workout clothes), have 7 facial piercings (tho tastefully done yet edgy imo), a few visible tattoos (with more in the future), and plenty of accessories (hat, necklace/pendant, watch, bracelets, and black piercing jewelry)
- Confidence: This obviously will fluctuate, but I don’t live every day feeling like a loser anymore. The days no longer feel dull, gray, and forgettable. Most days, I feel cool, confident, sexy, calm, energetic, and HAPPY to be alive. In fact, I am sometimes too happy and excited to be alive that I do not sleep. I have cultivated this (and will keep doing so) from a lot journaling (here, notebook), talking with my bros more openly and emotionally, meditating, guitar lessons (my teacher has strangely turned these into more meditative and mindful practice with the guitar practice, and I LOVE it).
- Grooming: I keep my head, neck (front and back), chest, stomach, and pubic area trimmed or shaved… I grow out a mustache and maybe a light beard/5 o’clock shadow. I think this look pairs well with my baldness and darkness. I look like a “high-T” dude with all my hair/baldness (I got called Jason Statham the other day), but I keep it in check with good grooming.
- High-Quality Pictures: I am not remotely at my peak with these, but I have gotten feedback from a few women already about these. Getting a DSLR camera and putting in the effort to have higher-quality photos for dating apps or Instagram demonstrates my effort, quality, and that I am man (serious, smart, sexy, etc.). My exact feedback last night was: “You had nice pictures and looked like you put effort in. All other dude’s profiles suck and have no or a shitty bio”. Also my “muscles” (leanness) helped a lot in the pics and real life
WINS:
- I shared a wonderful experience with a lady last night… I’ll forgo the details since that isn’t my style at the moment nor am I comfortable sharing (I’ll journal it personally for the time being)
- I’ve been following the a method for dating apps, texting, and dates… and I have a lot of offers on that table (after only a week)
- Resting today (unless I set up another date) for the upcoming full weekend of bartending
- Gonna go make some gym progress here soon
AREA OF IMPROVEMENTS
- I fell off with my guitar practice a little this week. My instructor said that I still am progressing, which is wonderful to hear. He also helped coached me to not let my short-term frustration derail me from my long-term progress (I’m supposed to be practicing without being able to see the frets)
- I haven’t worked my computer job as much lately. I just do not have interest in it and very much enjoy doing my other activities. I have a little more clarity about starting my own hustle in the near future, but I have a legal blocker holding me back from doing that for the near little bit. I think this is a good sign for me to know what my next steps will be for my life and future.