Day Of Rest
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I got taken off the work schedule today, so I am thankful for that. Since it’s a slow day at the restaurant, they’re letting a server run the bar (he bartends 1/month, so good luck to him).
Anyways, I went out with about half the servers last night to a house party. Overall, it was nice, relaxed, and a bit different. Something I heard but now have experienced, the food industry has a lot of interesting people (i.e. drugs). It normally skews younger, less ambiguous, less serious/mature, more drug abuse, etc… maybe like a step above high school with more (or the same amount of drugs?). Although I appreciate how nice and kind everyone has been, I don’t care to really be in this sort of environment outside of work. Most also have no sleep schedule, which is another big issue for me. I had a good night, but I don’t have a desire to go out with them again. Another big struggle is how hard it is (or isn’t) to talk to everyone – I mean really talk not just say some edgy, sexual, or unserious shit ALL. THE. TIME. I took it as everyone being playful initially, but these folks are immature and are trying to distract or escape from their reality. Again, I don’t say that in a mean way, but I’m not in that mindset nor do I want to be drug into it. I like to “connect” with people as cliche as that is – not just spout ADD shit every few seconds. These people are not present in the moment, and that bothers me. I also believe this is good experience for me to be around “normal”, imperfect people.
One of the servers is some tall, cute “lesbian” that I am pretty sure was tweaking the whole day. We only had previously talked once when she introduced herself, but yesterday she was very erratic and aggressive (“talking shit”, flipping me off, coming up behind and saying she wanted to smack my bald head, etc. – at work). I can handle that, but it was weird for a stranger [to me] to act like that… I am sure she’s on drugs. At the party, I didn’t put up with her shit, and she stopped acting aggressive and couldn’t look me in the eyes afterwards. Goes to show most women aren’t the tough badasses they like to think they are. I don’t relish in it, but I don’t regret not being a bitch.
PLANNING:
Today: phone is off. I’ve already studied my bartending recipes (and have the [very elaborate] menu cocktails memorized). Planning for the upcoming week.
- Journal, meditate, play guitar
- Sell some shit to get rid of unused items… this will help fund my replacement bicycle if insurance doesn’t cover it
- Rework my calisthenics routine to start progressing to harder movements (muscle ups, tucks, unsupported planche pushups, more handstands, L-sits, etc.)
- I’m considering moving in a year… I have some life stuff that needs time to resolve here first as well as I need my own break. After that – moving in a year gives me time to visit places now (since I have a few locations), plan moving ~6 months before, and then doing it. I need a bigger, different city – get away from my past and some of the influences here.
- Start some dating app profiles to join purgatory
- Redo macros/diets… I’ve been eating better (from say a year ago) where I eat less overall but more protein. I’ve continued to lose fat and gain muscle (very slowly, but progress is progress). I want to “lock-in” these hard-won gains. As of today, I am 158.8lbs at 11% BF (per fat caliper – which even if it’s wrong I have progress of my skinfold widths going lower).
WINS:
Bartending:
I tell some of the customers at the bar about how new I am, and they all have been incredibly kind and encouraging. This has made me a lot more present and less anxious at my new job. I did not expect random strangers to be so supportive, but it really has meant a lot. One guy complimented me on studying my cocktail flashcards during a slow day and how he appreciated seeing someone doing their best (and he said my drinks that I made him tasted great). This follows a theme of mine for the new year: being more open and vulnerable has given me much more kindness than I have ever experienced before.
Weight Loss
Remember: I’m 5'5" and used to be built like a brick wall.
My stats: TL;DR: I was 174 lbs in December (18% BF per DEXA scan) and currently am 159 lbs (11% BF per fat caliper). My measurements were inconsistent due to life circumstances, but I have been keeping the habit. I am almost back to my lean [muscle] mass now as I was when I was fatter. I definitely look and feel better – PEOPLE (men and women) treat me better and more friendly (or maybe my mindset is better? all wins to me)
FUNNY “REJECTION” STORY:
I have been managing the Tinder and Bumble profiles of a friend of mine to “see” the dating landscape and get “experience”. Honestly, I wanted to see what they looked like for my area before putting myself on it. I matched with some OnlyFans chick, who is pretty cute but doesn’t seem like she has a lot going on. Of course, she’s just looking for a relationship, but I digress. I wasn’t able to set up a date with her and my friend since he left town, but I asked if I could “steal” her. I pulled the classic question asking her if she likes white boys… and what she sent after that was…
Apparently, I never realized “how white” I am LOL. I was working out while doing this, so I took my frustration out on that. This doesn’t bother me now. Thankfully, I’ve had enough positive reference experiences that I am okay with someone not liking me. I appreciate her honesty instead of wasting my time. My buddy called me afterwards to check in on me and told me that she was brutal, but I think he was more upset than I was. I live in a non-white majority area, so this can be expected from time to time.